I love him with all my heart. But at the moment I don't like him very much.
Apparently I'm supposed to wallow away waiting for him to "decide what he wants". I'm sorry.. pardon my french but.. NO FUCKING WAY. No, no, no and no again. I am not going to sit around in limbo while Mr. Wonderful twiddles his thumbs and plays games with my life. He doesn't even know if he WANTS things to be "fixed"!!! So I'm supposed to hang around like some lovesick teenager while he decides if he even wants to TRY and work it out?? (Mind you I've been in this limbo for MONTHS!) Again... NO FUCKING WAY. I'm done. Today. Right now. As of this moment my marriage is nothing more than a piece of paper.
I'm 40 years old and I get to start all over again. Oh yay me.