Saturday, May 29, 2010

I prayed all week....

That this morning would come and I'd wake up to him telling me it was all a big joke that he loved me and had made big plans for our anniversary. Apparently that isn't part of God's plan. Because this morning dawned and he couldn't even muster the emotion up to mutter "Happy Anniversary" in my general direction let alone acknowledge the day with a gift or card.

I can say with absolute certainty that I now know what a broken heart feels like. It's.... I can't even come up with a word adequate enough to describe how much it hurts.

And I just have one question.... when will it stop?

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  1. That really is terrible. I'm sorry you are going through this. I can't imagine sticking around while he continuously hurts you. I know I'm not you and you aren't me, but I'd ask him to leave or vice versa. I know there are a lot of factors to consider, but it obviously is getting worse rather than better. Shame on him for unnecessarily hurting you more. It's one thing to not be in love anymore, but to make it more painful when it didn't have to be is just so wrong.

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  2. OH MICHELLE!! :( My heart just broke reading that. I have a different perspective than Leigh Ann. I think marriage is worth the fight of our lives. I'm praying so hard Michelle. I know God hears me and I know, first hand, He moves MOUNTAINS for His children. {{{{HUGS}}}}

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  3. I like to have just 5 minutes alone with him, I know it takes two but it doesn't take a genius to be an ass!
    I am really sorry Michelle, I love ya If that matters!

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  4. Kelly, I think you have taken my comment the wrong way. Of course marriage is worth the fight of our lives. But when the other person is tearing you apart by their actions, and wants no part of it, there is a point when you have to DO something. We don't turn into doormats for our partners the day we say our vows.

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  5. “When love is lost, do not bow your head in sadness; instead keep your head up high and gaze at the stars for that is where your broken heart has been sent to heal!” -Anonymous

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  6. Michelle- I am here if you need support for ANYTHING! I have been through it all. NO ONE has the right to torture you- you are a tough woman (all mothers are!) and you can put a stop to this. At some point it becomes less painful to leave than to stay. When I decided to end my marriage, I was heartbroken, but it was also a HUGE weight off my shoulders, because I was able to get on with my life and become the person I wanted to be without 300 pounds of dead weight dragging me down. Call me anytime you need a little love! My number is on my Facebook.

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